Monday, June 27, 2011

Dow Jones - Just A Techno Groove (1989)

Where yo titties @?















Of all the people I have ever known, those who have pursued their dreams and failed have lived a much more fulfilling life than those who have put their dreams on a shelf for fear of failure. ~Author Unknown







We fail more often by timidity than by over-daring. ~David Grayson



"The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials." Chinese proverb




“Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.”
Storm Jameson


“Do not fear risk. All exploration, all growth is calculated. Without challenge people cannot reach their higher selves. Only if we are willing to walk over the edge can we become winners.”



“Love is not love until love's vulnerable”
Theodore Roethke


Take risks: if you win, you will be happy; if you lose, you will be wise. ~Author Unknown

mellow mondays.

Vulnerable.
1.capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt, as by a weapon: a vulnerable part of the body.
2.open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc.: an argument vulnerable to refutation; He is vulnerable to bribery.

risk
1. The possibility of suffering harm or loss; danger.
2. A factor, thing, element, or course involving uncertain danger; a hazard: "the usual risks of the desert: rattlesnakes, the heat, and lack of water" (Frank Clanc

In life you have to take risks. However, its scary to do so. I mean just read the definitions to these words.

Life is scary.

We are all definitely in charge of steering of what direction we want to take our lives but sometimes we reach a point in the road where it cuts off into different paths and sometimes we avoid the "risky" path and take the easy one. Its logical.

But why?!?!?! damn, we have to stop living in fear! Think of how much more rewarding it could be when u get to where u envision yourself knowing you actually did it when u decided to be bold enough to break down the walls, breach your limits, and finally conquer and overcome these fears, whatever they may be.

Focus on your priorities and dont let anything get in your way.

Try new things.

Dont be afraid. If you fuck up, who cares...it wont be the end of the world. Youll move on.

Stop trying to impress people or live up to their expectations, its ok to have people in your life who are there to push you but ultimately you have to push yourself and be the best you can be, your the only one whose going to be the best at being you- no one can do it for you.

Those who look to find strength through others are great, but those who look deep within to find that strength are powerful.

Ive been blessed with many people who have recently entered my life. They're all inspiring in their own ways and I feel like I am finally able to break free and Im willing to put myself out there, Im exposing myself more than ever before and its liberating. Its scary yea, but exhilarating!! Im putting myself at risk living on the verge of not really knowing whether what Im doing is going to be successful. But Im holding on to the idea that these "risks" will result in success
Its time for some faith.
Time to believe.
Time to let go and be vulnerable.

I want to live knowing, not wondering what could have been.

“Faith is like electricity. You can’t see it, but you can see the light.”
Anonymous






Thursday, June 23, 2011

women.


There's no question my mother has been the most influential woman to me. if you know me, ur well aware of this. but Ive recently been moved by women around me in ways I never expected. Even girl friends of mine. Single moms, young moms, etc... my boss for example.


I met her last year when I came in for a job application never expecting to see her in her underwear. (that makes it twice after tonight) no not like that pervert. get yer mind out of the gutter- its a hot summer day we were just kicking it after work.

...neways she and her mother opened up the restaurant where I work now and we sell a lot of old family recipe czech pastries and entrees. The decor to the restaurant is absolutely phenomenal; women flock the place to show it off to their girlfriends, its a mixture of modern contemporary with elegant touches and details everywhere! Everything in the place has a story or meaning, from the extraordinary chandelier, to the colors, german cuckoo clocks, and jellyfish in the bathroom. yes jellyfish. dont believe me. come chk it out. But before I ramble on Ill get to my point, my boss is one of the most inspiring women Ive met recently- she is a mother to the most adorable 6 month year old red head boy and she still manages to run the restaurant everyday. Idk how she does it sometimes I mean even when she was 9 months pregnant she was running around helping us out- Shes a very easy woman to please and asks for very little in return to her unconditional love that she demonstrates to not only us her staff but the customers in general. idk I could go on and on, she lives in a tiny apartment, while she waits to get her house built but doesnt care. I mean she does, but she doesn't fuss over it, she simply dedicates her time and soul into making the best of what she has atm. I love that.




Another woman who recently opened up to me is our dishwasher. Im not going to go into detail with the struggles this woman has endured but I will be one to say that when she opened up to me about deep personal things she has gone through it hit me deep...made me cry... made me wonder why some are more and less fortunate than others. She is now one of my closest friends. A daily reminder of hard work and why I would love to hopefully make an impact on a little girl's life and open up her mind to see outside the box of the culture she is being raised in. Whether u realize it or not the environment you are raised in plays a major role in how your life unfolds in society. idc where u live, until you have traveled you will realize this is true. You have to step outside the boundaries, break them. See life from an outside perspective and visualize the endless possibilities that this world has to offer you. Dont get stuck in one place.

Frankie Grimes - Caboclo (Original Mix)

Frankie Grimes - Caboclo (Original Mix) by frankiegrimes

Miss Bolivia - Jálame la tanga

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Oh Happy Day

Its Titty Tuesday FTW! YESSSSSS!

mhmmmm mhhhmmmmmmm



Beautiful morning.


So during work around 8am this woman frantically rushes in and hands me this birthday coffee mug and tells me to please serve her husbands coffee in it to surprise him =) She played it off so cool so I went along with it and you could just tell how much thought she had put into this after so many years of being married Im sure... We began to talk and as she was speaking to me you could just tell by the way her husband looked at her he was still madly head over heels for this woman, I mean he was looking at her with so much endearment as if he had just laid eyes on her. Who's to blame him though, with such a bubbly personality and so much spark this woman radiated so much positive energy- we spoke about that. about how positive thinking can get you anything you want in life and how even being in a parking lot and wishfully thinking ull find a spot close by its there BAM just magically appears! no joke, i play that game at lights- and it works most of the time lol. we spoke about our favorite authors and serendipity.

Serendipity. one of my favorite words. a fortunate accident. =) destiny. <3 Im an avid believer in these things^ to make my point, this woman finally gets around to asking me my name. turns out she and I have the same name and were born in the same place. so I go on to tell our chef of the incidents that just happened and I ramble on talking about how I was craving a raspberry pastry bc I bought some fresh ones last night and was thinking of asking her for ideas on to making some sort of cake with them when she just smiles and pull out a linzer tort from the oven that she had just baked with raspberries, farmers cheese, & almonds.




enough said.




Sunday, June 19, 2011

Glad this weekends over.

Mujeres al borde de un ataque de nervios.

Live the Moment




Live the moment

The Moment is NOW

Forget the Regrets of yesterday.....


Let go the wonders of tomorrow.

Seize the moment.

Hold on to today ~Viv <3

Big Ups 2 all da Pops




my dad out in Big Bend as a river guide

I wont go into detail on how I grew up all I will tell you is I was definitely blessed to be surrounded by some pretty rad men growing up. I stand by the words- "There's many men out there that can have a baby, but it takes a real man to be a dad" -so I hope you wished a Happy Fathers Day to any influential male role-model in your life; whether it be a grandfather, step-father, brother....

There's a lot of good men out there- w/ big hearts. dont wrry baby cakes- love will find u.

I love my dad, a lot of who I am is mainly due to you dad- although I dont get sarcasm well- Im still much of a smart ass just like you. I just "get" music fundamentals bc of you and your extreme skills as a drummer. My father is a one of the sickest drummers Ive ever listened to, better than most my friends. srry guys. true story. We still have a set of 80s Remo double bass drums in our living room which he plays from time to time LOUDLY & never fails to brings back vivid memories of him playing them in our house and out at shows growing up as a kid. I remember he even bought me a mini drum set that I never really got into hahaha. =D

Im driven, passionate, and very well independent minded just like you- Im able to rely solely on myself and feel and know that I dont have to depend on anyone else, especially a man... its liberating. Im thankful I was raised with this mentality that I can do anything I want... anything I dream up can become a reality. I have strong faith in myself as a woman. I've acquired your ability to know how to talk to people and conjure them into helping me achieve my goals, whatever they may be- & Im also quite content with being by alone and exploring the world alone especially by myself out in the middle of nowhere surrounded by nature away from the city lights bc of you.

my brother and I =))

To my brother, who was raised with me growing up. Hes definitely played a very influential part in my life- he's pretty rad. A true genius if I must say. Ill always remember him kicking me out of his wicked room full of bookshelves and crazy science projects scattered all around. He was an honor student and he came up with crazy inventions like gathering bones from dead birds around telephone poles and putting them together to make a mini dinosaur skeleton exhibit. He also worked out this mechanic where he could turn off the light switch from his bed with strings and tacks used as pulleys lol- I thought it was ingenious. He's still like that till this day! & although my brain will never be as brilliant and creative as his, I did acquire a lot of my studying habits and passion to want to learn about history & culture from him. I love joo long time even though u would use my favorite spoon to eat your big bowls of cereal everyday after school. =)

Neways Feliz dia del Tata =) bye.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

song of the day

Phantogram - mouthful of diamonds

June 14

Alaska In Winter "Berlin"




howdy, hope your having a fabulous titty tuesday. now flash yer titties like queen nefertitti jk dont do that, you'll look like an asshole.

A collection of Paulo Coelho quotes:



““When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.””



“The wise are wise only because they love. The fool are fools only because they think they can understand love.”


“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.”


“I think it is a problem of our society that we don't enjoy (ourselves.) We have these values, like, you have to be rich, you have to get a diploma, you have to work hard, otherwise you are useless, you are nothing but a pariah. And the book asks, 'Is it true? This is what my mom told me, but is it true?”


“You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.”


“I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.”




“We have to stop and be humble enough to understand that there is something called mystery.”

“The moment of that kiss contained every happy moment I had ever lived.”



“The biggest mistake of the man is that he thinks he doesn't deserve the good and the bad things from his life.”

“No one can lie, no one can hide anything, when he looks directly into someone's eyes.”







dream guide

Tiger
To see a tiger in your dream, represents power and your ability to exert it in various situations. The dream may also indicate that you need to take more of a leadership role. Alternatively, the tiger represents female sexuality, aggression, and seduction


Anaconda
To see an anaconda in your dream, symbolizes your creativity and potential. This snakes also calls attention to your sexuality and your need to be more in tune with your own sexuality.


Jungle
To dream that you are in a jungle, signifies aspects of yourself and your personality that may be inhibited. You may be experiencing some chaos and unpredictable circumstances in your waking life. Consider the phrase "it's a jungle out there!"


Water Park
To dream that you are in a water park, indicates that you are expressing an emotional high point. You are feeling emotionally satisfied and fulfilled.

Tigers, Snakes, and Waterparks

So last night I had some pretty crazzzzeh dreams again, before that however I had a dream when I took a nap that I was playing slip and slide on some mattresses behind wal mart.

but neways, in this one I was walking around some huge water park somewhere in South America that was located within a jungle- Ive had this dream a lot actually- and its pretty rad...the slides are amongst the trees and the pools all look sorta murky and creepy and there's tons of them everywhere. You sorta feel like your in some sort of Eden's garden....but yea- I always manage to get lost....and wander deep into the jungle and last night I wandered off with some family members and then I came to a clearing where I heard this heavy purring/growl...then I looked and there was a white tiger walking towards me- the animal was enormous and gave off such an overpowering vibe...but I wasnt scared....the only thing that did scare me was a snake I happened to see at my feet all of a sudden hiding under this fern, it was speaking to me but I didnt understand it- and I knew somehow that the tiger was trying to actually protect me from it....that was it.






digi g´alessio - girella yum yum

Titty Titty Bang Bang, its Titty Tuesday

Monday, June 13, 2011

Oh Mondays

Corny movies make me reminisce, they break me down easy on this generic love shit, 1st kiss frog and princess ~cocorosie



Cocorosie - Werewolf (Omega Remix)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

June 12

I cant remember the last time I was genuinely this happy. Fulfillment. Its funny how even though at one point certain times in your life seem like utter downfalls they always have a purpose and things usually end up falling into place. There's so many choices and lifestyles being lived and made every singe day. It can be work or relationship related, it doesnt matter- how big or how small- its these choices that lead or close new chapters in our lives. Its like a massive complicated puzzle where you have to try and fit pieces together and eventually all the pieces will finally come together and ull take a few steps back look at the big picture and realize how inconsequential these moments truly were, well I take that back- sort of. They are important bc they shape who you are, help you discover new passions, empower you, and also most importantly help you see what you DONT want.... but the moments where you think u will never smile again, not be able to find another job, or currently have a job that is no yet bringing you the success you expect, or find another person that will make you feel complete again DO come to an end....not saying you wont think or wonder what things could have been like bc we all do, its human nature....you just have to remember that you can not waste time pondering over these decisions or what could have been- you have to work with what you have make the best of what you have and aspire to move on. Why hold on to the negative energy, why waste time? life's too short...no really it is- your going to move on, you will be ok, you will smile again, so why not help yourself out by taking the initial first step and just let go- take one final breath dont hold on and let go.


Ive sat and thought about this passed year- its been quite a year for me, Ive learned so much about myself- the value of real friends, real people, friends who become like family....Ive come to a point where I dont care to impress anyone and its very fulfilling to have friends around me now that truly value who I am genuinely. Even the bad decisions I've made have helped me. Ive stopped explaining myself or defending my beliefs and decisions, I just go with them full-heartedly even if they dont make sense to anyone else, idc- they make me happy...I like the feeling, I like being loved for me. Try it. stop pretending.

Washed Out - Olivia

Happy Hangover Day for all you party peoplez

Isabella Of Castille - Starfucker

Thursday, June 9, 2011

<3!!! bella bella bella

El Polen - Valicha (Chong X rmx) El Polen - Valicha (Chong X rmx) by chong-x

Schlachthofbronx-Chambacu (Smutlee Remix)

Schlachthofbronx-Chambacu (Smutlee Remix) by maddecent

What happened 2 sex, drugs, n rock n' roll??... Now we just have aids, crack and techno ;)

Phonat - "Set me free"

hey yo dude, Dont be Lame bro

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June 9

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Monday, June 6, 2011

Tortillas, Pirates, and Sunsets





LOL!!! What a crazy crazy dream- In the dream I just woke up from I was on this cruise ship running around bc this woman had told me I needed a vacation- somehow though I ran into my grandmothers house which is in Mexico and she was making tortillas that smelled wonderful! haha and so I took one and nibbled away at it as I walked around the shop then I got a text from my boss saying I had work at 11 the next day so I started rushing to do a bunch of things- I put on an elegant dress and then I walked down into the cruise ships dance hall and was handed two bottles of very fancy mixers so I started walking downstairs to celebrate idk what- then this guy with long hair caught my eye and I knew I had to follow him I then stupidly fell down the escalators bc I tried going down the ones that were rising not going down and I fell onto him but he caught me- then he told me that he had been waiting for me all his life bc I didnt know this but the woman who gave me the cruise tickets was in reality my sister and he had been in love with her his whole life and was expecting to see her and he knew she was no longer in love with him =( then he grabbed this real fancy gold embedded knife with animal bone and stabbed himself!! =o then this other crazy smelly pirate came running out screaming and jumped off the ship for no reason whatsoever! so I ran away panicked thinking oh my I must get out of here and I have to work! So I end up back at my grandmother's house and hurry to take a shower- right then a beautiful woman comes in and says she needs to hurry and get ready too so she asks if we can shower together n I say sure w/e. All of a sudden though she tries to seduce me and I get all weirded out bc I realize its a she-man....and I get upset with her for tricking me. I get out of the shower and finish getting ready in a public bathroom and this other woman comes in and says I see you've met yada yada and laughs and says she always does that- so I leave there and head out and the dream skips to me being out by a lake at sunset on a picnic- I cant see the guys face but he puts his arm around me and just smiles at me- then I woke up.

Good morning.

None of the occurrences in this dream have anything to do with my waking life at all- srsly idk what my brain does to me sometimes.
penis lake zak escalators ship man port o pot

Tortillas, Pirates, and Sunsets

LOL!!! What a crazy crazy dream- In the dream I just woke up from I was on this cruise ship running around bc this woman had told me I needed a vacation- somehow though I ran into my grandmothers house which is in Mexico and she was making tortillas that smelled wonderful! haha and so I took one and nibbled away at it as I walked around the shop then I got a text from my boss saying I had work at 11 the next day so I started rushing to do a bunch of things- I put on an elegant dress and then I walked down into the cruise ships dance hall and was handed two bottles of very fancy mixers so I started walking downstairs to celebrate idk what- then this guy with long hair caught my eye and I knew I had to follow him I then stupidly fell down the escalators bc I tried going down the ones that were rising not going down and I fell onto him but he caught me- then he told me that he had been waiting for me all his life bc I didnt know this but the woman who gave me the cruise tickets was in reality my sister and he had been in love with her his whole life and was expecting to see her and he knew she was no longer in love with him =( then he grabbed this real fancy gold embedded knife with animal bone and stabbed himself!! =o then this other crazy smelly pirate came running out screaming and jumped off the ship for no reason whatsoever! so I ran away panicked thinking oh my I must get out of here and I have to work! So I end up back at my grandmother's house and hurry to take a shower- right then a beautiful woman comes in and says she needs to hurry and get ready too so she asks if we can shower together n I say sure w/e. All of a sudden though she tries to seduce me and I get all weirded out bc I realize its a she-man....and I get upset with her for tricking me. I get out of the shower and finish getting ready in a public bathroom and this other woman comes in and says I see you've met yada yada and laughs and says she always does that- so I leave there and head out and the dream skips to me being out by a lake at sunset on a picnic- I cant see the guys face but he puts his arm around me and just smiles at me- then I woke up.

Good morning.

None of the occurrences in this dream have anything to do with my waking life at all- srsly idk what my brain does to me sometimes.
penis lake zak escalators ship man port o pot

Saturday, June 4, 2011

SATURDAY June 4

Clouds of death

Ive fallen into these very odd sleeping patterns- woke up at dawn this morning then fell back asleep....into some out of this world dreams. It sorta creeped me out- I mean I have crazy dreams all the time (going to parks with elephants who have woman human legs with brightly colored gem heels as their trunks for example) yea. No I dont take drugs.

ok so in last night's dream we were on a set filming a movie- but the creatures where real- these werent costumes...there was women with animal heads and I was the director there, somehow we knew something bad was about to happen, the skies all turned this fiery red and dark clouds rolled in with super bright lightening- I was really gloomy so I took my car and I guess my body gave out bc next thing I know I was laying in the street right in the middle of an intersection and I was stunned I hadnt been run over but when I woke up I realized that there were abandoned cars everywhere and nothing but emergency crews running around- so I woke up covered in ashes and started walking down this bridge over a highway at sunset came onto a wooden boardwalk that led to the site where all these animal/human people were and said good-bye.... I came to this bench sat down and tried taking photos of a vast sunflower field right as the sun was setting and then I woke up.

GOOD MORNING =)